The vast difference between wanting and expecting

A friend wrote that in her psych class, the professor had the students write down, anonymously, how many sexual partners they wanted in their lifetimes.

I started thinking about it. I have slept with three people. (I know, some of you might want to dispute that, so I will add that I attempted to have sex with two other individuals, but I don't count them in the number of people I have slept with, which is three.)

And you know how many sexual partners I want in my lifetime? Four. Because ideally, I want to meet someone, and only have sex with them, for the rest of my life.

I know what you might be thinking - the "romance-is-hopeless, chivalry-is-dead" girl dreams of monogamy? Yes, yes I do. I was built for it. In fact, if it had been up to me, I would have only slept with sexual partner #1 for the rest of my life. I didn't get my way, hence sexual partners #2 and #3.)

Ideally, I only want one more partner. I want a partner for life.

I may be bitter, but I never said that lifelong romantic partnerships don't exist. I do however, think that my chances of achieving such a feat are slim to nil.

Therefore, the answer is more likely to be 10 - six more partners, spread out, over the next 30 years, before I give up and embrace inevitable celibacy.

The knowledge that it will probably be 2-3 years before I get laid again - or even get to kiss someone again - could make anyone bitter.

On a Scale from 1 to Bitter: Sexually Frustrated
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