I hated The Fountainhead. Loathed it. Despised it. I don't even really remember anything about the book, except a scene, toward the beginning. The hero is sitting in a boat with his friend, and he tells his friend that if he fell out of the boat, he would risk his life to save him. "I would die for you," the hero says, "But I won't live for you."

Suicide is considered such a selfish thing. I'm supposed to live out my life, no matter how unbearable it becomes... so that I don't hurt the people who love me.

Maybe it's selfish of them to ask me to suffer for them.

I can't stay here, and I have nowhere else to go. I don't have any choices left.